These remarkable handwritten memoirs of Lady Anne Halkett (1623–1699) explore romantic rebellion and political intrigue from a female perspective, at a time when the vast majority of writing was still produced by men. Although there are some earlier autobiographies written by English women, they are largely religious. This is perhaps the first to deal with the drama of human love. It tells of Halkett’s struggle between passion and pious obedience, and between illicit love and the security of marriage.

In its themes, the work may remind us of an early modern drama like Romeo and Juliet or an 18th-century novel with dashing men in disguises and courageous, conflicted women.

Youthful disobedience: Anne’s affair with Thomas Howard (ff. 1r–8v)

Writing in 1677–78 with the hindsight of middle-age, Lady Halkett looks back at the turmoil of her youth in 1644–56 when the English Civil Wars were raging. The royalist Anne Halkett expresses her staunch support for King Charles I in his conflict with Parliament.

From the start, Anne takes pains to insist that she is grateful to her parents for her refined Christian education and close connections with court. Her mother Jane Drummond had been governess to Charles I’s children, while her father James Murray (who died when Anne was a baby) had been Provost of Eton College.

But Anne confesses to ‘an act of disobedience’ at the age of 21, when she gave way to Thomas Howard, son of the exiled Lord Howard of Escrick. Thomas had been sent from France to make a ‘rich match’ to a suitably wealthy woman (f. 3r), but instead fell passionately in love with Anne against their parents’ will. When Anne’s mother threatened to ‘turne [her] outt of her doores’ if she ever saw Thomas again (f. 5v), she artfully resolved to be ‘blindfolded’ at their next secret meeting to prevent her from technically ‘seeing him’ (f. 8r). But, despite temptation, she steadfastly refused to marry him ‘without consentt of parents’, since this would be the greatest sign of ‘ingratitude’ (f. 8v). The last we hear of Thomas is in 1646, when he marries ‘an Earle’s daughter’ (f. 11r).

Anne’s affair with the royalist secret agent, Colonel Joseph Bampfield (ff. 12r–15v)

In 1648, Anne shifts her attention to another man, Colonel Joseph Bampfield. In that year the Colonel was plotting to help the Duke of York – the future James II – to escape from imprisonment at St. James by disguising him in women’s clothes. Anne took on the task of ordering the Duke’s scarlet ‘petticoate’ and ‘wastcoate’, though the tailor raised his eyebrows at the unusual size of the waist (f. 13r). Anne bravely dressed the duke in ‘wemen’s habit’, noting that he ‘was very pretty in itt’ (f. 14r) and he succeeded in escaping. Excited by this intrigue, Anne became embroiled with Bampfield, who insisted that his wife was dead and asked Anne to marry him (f. 15v). For years she wrestled with her conscience, but was finally forced to admit that his wife was alive and kicking. The autobiography ends some years later, in 1656, when Anne finally agrees to marry a suitable widower, Sir James Halkett (f. 59r), and takes on her own work in medicine.


his word. And since wee have an advocate with the Father of

Christ the righteous, hee will plead for mee wherin I am inocentt

and pardon wherin I have beene guiltty; for God sentt nott his Son

into the World to Condemne the world, butt that the world through

him might bee Saved, in whom we have boldnese and adrese with

Confidence by the faith of him. And that is the reason why I faint

nott under tribulation, for there is noe sin that ever I

have been guilty of in my whole Life butt I repent

with as much sincearity as I seeke pardon. And I supli

cate for Grace and Live uprightly here, with the same

fervor that I seeke for heaven here affter.

And if the Lord sees fitt to continue mee still in the furnace of

affliction, his blesed will bee done so that I may bee one

his chosen.

[The following statement, in an early hand but not Lady Halkett's]

“This Manuscript”

written by Anne, Dau: of Mr. Thos Murray, Provost of Eton,

and Preceptor of Charles 1_st_ She was Lady of the Bedchamber

Queen Henrietta Maria, and married Sir Jas Halkett, Knt of Pitfirren

[The following is, again, Lady Halkett's hand. This is a transcription of the surviving portion of the text. The missing parts of lines are represented by the margins]

For my parentts I need nott say much, since they were

And I need nott bee ashamed to owne them

was mentioned as my reproach that I was of

ion, whereas hee that now succeds to that fa

was once which was as good a gentleman as any

ter, I shall ever bee sattisfied with what can

the advantage of that familly, but some that

to, both by father and mother would take it till nott

  thought Gentlemen; for my father claimed

of beeing derived from the Earle of Tillibardin's familly and

my mother from the Earle of Perth's.

Hee was thought a wise King who made choice of my f

to bee tuter to the late King of blessed memory; and what

the excellentt Prince learnt in his youth kept him stedfast

in his religion though under all the temptations of Spaine,

temperate in all the exceses that attend a court, vertuous

and constant to the only lawfull imbraces of the Queene,

and [unmov]able and undisturbed under all his unparaleld suffe

rings. For all recompence to my father's care in discharging his

duty, hee was made Provost of Eaton Colledge, where hee

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    his word. And since wee have an advocate with the Father of

    Christ the righteous, hee will plead for mee wherin I am inocentt

    and pardon wherin I have beene guiltty; for God sentt nott his Son

    into the World to Condemne the world, butt that the world through

    him might bee Saved, in whom we have boldnese and adrese with

    Confidence by the faith of him. And that is the reason why I faint

    nott under tribulation, for there is noe sin that ever I

    have been guilty of in my whole Life butt I repent

    with as much sincearity as I seeke pardon. And I supli

    cate for Grace and Live uprightly here, with the same

    fervor that I seeke for heaven here affter.

    And if the Lord sees fitt to continue mee still in the furnace of

    affliction, his blesed will bee done so that I may bee one

    his chosen.

    [The following statement, in an early hand but not Lady Halkett's]

    “This Manuscript”

    written by Anne, Dau: of Mr. Thos Murray, Provost of Eton,

    and Preceptor of Charles 1_st_ She was Lady of the Bedchamber

    Queen Henrietta Maria, and married Sir Jas Halkett, Knt of Pitfirren

    [The following is, again, Lady Halkett's hand. This is a transcription of the surviving portion of the text. The missing parts of lines are represented by the margins]

    For my parentts I need nott say much, since they were

    And I need nott bee ashamed to owne them

    was mentioned as my reproach that I was of

    ion, whereas hee that now succeds to that fa

    was once which was as good a gentleman as any

    ter, I shall ever bee sattisfied with what can

    the advantage of that familly, but some that

    to, both by father and mother would take it till nott

      thought Gentlemen; for my father claimed

    of beeing derived from the Earle of Tillibardin's familly and

    my mother from the Earle of Perth's.

    Hee was thought a wise King who made choice of my f

    to bee tuter to the late King of blessed memory; and what

    the excellentt Prince learnt in his youth kept him stedfast

    in his religion though under all the temptations of Spaine,

    temperate in all the exceses that attend a court, vertuous

    and constant to the only lawfull imbraces of the Queene,

    and [unmov]able and undisturbed under all his unparaleld suffe

    rings. For all recompence to my father's care in discharging his

    duty, hee was made Provost of Eaton Colledge, where hee

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         ved nott long butt died when I was butt three months old;

    yett itt seemes the short time hee lived amongst those

    prebends they were so well sattisfied both with him and my

    mother that after my father's death they pettitioned to have

    his place continued to my mother a yeare was never before

    granted to any woman. And during her time they all renued

    there leases as a testimony of there respect & desire to give

    her that advantage.

    As this may evidence what my father's partts were, So

    my mother may bee best knowne by beeng thought fitt both

         the late King & Queene's Majesty to bee intrusted twice

           h the charge & honor of beeng governese to the Duke of

           ocester & the Princese Elizabeth, first during the time that

         e Countese of Roxbery (who owned my mother for her cousin)

       went, & continued in Holland with the Princese Royall,

    and then againe when my Lady Roxbery died. The first

    was only by a verball order, butt the last was under the

          gnett dated [        ] I have by mee to produce

       f itt were nesesary.

    By this short accountt I have given of my pa

       seene what trust the greatest thought them Cap

       erfore they could nott butt performe a duty to

         tt that care was wholy left (next to God’s pro

       y mother (my father dying when we were all very

    who spared noe expence in educating all her ch

        the most suitable way to improve them; and if I ma

        tt the advantage I might have done, it was my ow

        ault & nott my mother's, who paid masters for teachin

        my sister & mee to writte, speake French, play

        lute ˄& virginalls, & dance, and kept a gentlewoman

      to teach us all kinds of needleworke, wch shows I was

    nott brought up in an idle life. Butt my mother's

       reatest Care, & for which I shall ever owne to her

       memory the highest gratitude, was the great Care

       hee tooke that even from our infancy wee were ins

       ructed never to neglect to begin and end the day with

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    prayer, and orderly every morning to read the

    Bible, and ever to keepe the church as often

    as there was occation to meett there either for

    prayers or preaching. So that for many yeares to

    gether I was seldome or never absentt from devine

    service att five a clocke in the morning in the

    summer & sixe a clocke in the winter till the usurped

    power putt a restraintt to that puplicke worship

    so long owned and continued in the Church of England;

    where I blese God I had my education and the

    example of a good Mother, who kept constantt to

    her owne parish Church and had allways a great

    respect for the ministers under whose charge shee


    What my childish actions were I thinke I need

    nott give accountt of here, for I hope none will thinke

    they could bee either vicious or Scandalous. And from

    that time till the yeare 1644 I may truly say all

    my converse was so inocentt that my owne hart

    cannott challenge mee with any imodesty, either

    in thought or behavier, or an act of disobedience

    to my mother, to whom I was so observantt that

    as long as shee lived I doe nott remember that

    I made a visitt to the neerest neibour or went any

    where withoutt her liberty. And so scrupulous I

    was of giving any occation to speake of mee, as I

    know they did of others, that though I loved well

    to see plays & to walke in the Spring Garden

    sometimes (before itt grew something scandalous by the

    abuse of some), yett I cannott remember 3 times

    ever I wentt with any man besides my brothers &

    if I did, my sisters or others better then myselfe was

    with mee. And I was the first that proposed and

    practised itt, for 3 or 4 of us going together withoutt

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    any man, and every one paying for themselves by

    giving the mony to the footman who waited on

    us & hee gave itt in the play howse. And this

    I did first upon hearing some gentlemen telling

    what ladys they had waited on to plays and

    how much itt had cost them, upon which I resolved

    none should say the same of mee.

    In the yeare 1644 I confese I was guilty of an act

    of disobedience, for I gave way to ye adrese

    of a person whom my mother, att the first time

    thatever hee had occation to bie conversant wth

    mee, had absolutely discharged mee ever to allow of:

    and though before ever I saw him severalls did tell

    mee that there would bee something more then ordinary

    betwixt him and mee (wch I beleeve they fudged from

    the great friendship betwixt his sister & mee, for

    wee were seldome assunder att London, and shee & I

    were bedfellows when shee came to my sister's howse

    att Charleton, where for the most part shee staed while

    wee continued in the country), yett hee was halfe a

    yeare in my company before I discovered anything

    of a particular inclination for mee more then another

    and as I was civill to him both for his owne meritt

    and his sister's sake; so any particular civility I recea

    ved from him I looked upon itt as flowing from the

    affection hee had to his sister and her kindness to mee.

    After that time itt seemes hee was nott so much master

    of himselfe as to conceale itt any longer. And having

    never any opertunity of beeng alone with mee to speake

    himself, hee imployed a young gentleman (whose confi

    dent hee was in an Amour betwixt him & my Lady

    Anne: his Cousin German) to tell mee how much hee

    had indeavored all this time to smother his passion

    which hee said began the first time that ever hee

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    saw mee, and now was come to that height

    that if I did nott give him some hopes of faver

    hee was resolved to goe backe againe into France

    (from whence hee had come when I first saw

    him) and turne Capucin. Though this discourse

    disturbed mee, yett I was a weeke or ten days before

    I would bee perswaded so much as to heare him

    speake of this subject, & desired his friend to repr

    esentt severall disadvantages that itt would bee to

    him to pursue such a designe. And know˄ing that

    his father had sentt for him outt of France with an

    intention to marry him to sum rich match that

    might improve his fortune, itt would bee high

    ingratitude in mee to doe any thing to hinder

    such a designe

                           since his father had beene so obleeging

    to my mother & sister as to use his Lordship's interest with ye

    Parliamentt to preventt the ruine of my brother's howse and k.

    Butt when all I could say to him by his friend

    could nott prevaile, butt that hee grew so ill and

    discontented that all the howse tooke notice, I did

    yield so farre to comply with his desire as to

    give him liberty one day when I was walking in ye gallery

    to                     come there & speake to mee. What

    hee said was handsome; & short, butt much disordered,

    for hee looked pale as death, & his hand trembled

    when hee tooke mine to lead mee, and with a great

    sigh said If I loved you lese I could say more.

    I told him I could nott butt thinke myselfe much

    obleeged to him for his good opinion of mee, butt itt

    would bee a higher obligation to confirme his esteeme

    of mee by following my advise, wch I should now give

    him my selfe, since hee would nott receave it by his

    friend. I used many arguements to diswade him from

    pursuing what hee proposed, and in conclusion told

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    him I was 2 or 3 yeare older then hee, & were there

    no other objection, yett that was of such weight with

    mee as would never lett mee allow his further adrese.

    Madam said hee what I love in you may well in –

    crease butt I am sure itt can never decay. I left

    arguing & told him I would advise him to consult

    with his owne reason and that would lett him see

    I had more respect to him in denying then in granting

    what with so much passion hee desired.

    After that, hee sought, & I shunned, all opertunittys of

    private discourse with him butt one day in the Garden

    his friend tooke his sister by the hand and lead her into

    another walke & left him & I together. And hee with

    very much seriousnese began to tell mee that hee had

    observed ever since hee had discovered his affection

    to mee that I was more reserved & avoided all converse

    with him & therefore, since hee had noe hopes of my faver

    hee was resolved to leave England, since hee could nott

    bee hapy in itt. And that what ever became of him

    might make him displease either his father or his

    friends, I was the occation of it, for if I would not give

    him hopes of marying him, hee was resolved to putt him

    selfe outt of a Capacity of Marying any other and goe

    imediately into a conventt, and that hee had taken

    order to have post horses ready against the next

    day. I confese this discourse disturbed mee, for though

    I had had noe respect for him, his sister, or his familly,

    yet Relligion was a tye upon mee to indeaver the

    prevention of the hazard of his soule. I looked on

    this as a violent passion which would nott last long

    and perhaps might grow the more by beeng resisted,

    when as a seeming complaisance might lessen itt.

    I told him I was sory to have him intertaine such

    thoughts as could nott butt bee a ruine to him and

    a great affliction to all his relations, wch I would willingly

    preventt if itt were in my power. Hee said itt was ab

    solutely in my power, for if I would promise to marry

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    him hee should esteeme himselfe the most hapy man

    living, and hee would waite what ever time I thought

    most convenientt for itt. I replied I though itt was

    unreasonable to urge mee to promise that which ere long hee

    might repentt the asking, butt this I would promise

    to sattisfy him, that I would nott marry till I saw him

    first maried. Hee kist my hand upon that with as much

    joy as if I had confirmed to him his greatest hapinese

    and said hee could desire noe more, for hee was secure

    I should never see nor heare of that till itt was to my

    selfe. Upon this wee parted, both well pleased, for hee

    thought hee had gained much in what I promised,

    and I looked upon my promise as a cure to him, butt

    noe inconvenience to myselfe, since I had noe inclin

    ation to marry any. And though I had, a delay in itt

    was the least returne I could make to so deserving

    a person. But I deceaved myselfe by thinking this

    was the way to moderate his passion, for now hee

    gave way to itt withoutt any restraintt and thought

    himselfe so secure of mee as if there had beene nothing

    to opose itt, though hee managed itt with that discretion

    that itt was scarce visible to any within the howse, nott

    so much as either his sister or mine had the least

    suspittion of itt, for I had injoymed him not to lett ym

    or any other know what his designes were because

    I would not have them accessory, what ever fault might

    bee in the prosecution of itt. Thus itt continued till

    towards winter that his sister was to goe home to her

    father againe, and then, knowing hee would want much

    of the opertunity hee had to converse with mee hee

    was then very importunate to have mee consent to marry

    him privately wch itt seemes hee pleased himselfe ˄so with

    the hopes of prevailing with mee that hee had provided

    a wedding ring and a minister to marry us. I was much

    unsattisfied with his going that lengh, & in short, told him

    hee need never expect I would marry him withoutt his

    father's and my mother's consentt. If that could bee obtained

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    I should willingly give him the sattisfaction hee desired

    butt withoutt that I could nott expect God's blesing neither

    upon him nor mee, and I would doe nothing that was

    so certaine a way to bring ruine upon us both.

    Hee used many argumentts from the examples of others

    who had practised the same and was hapy both in there

    parentts' faver and in one another, butt finding mee

    fixt beyond any perswasion, hee resolved to aquaintt

    my sister with itt & to imploy her to speake of itt to

    his father & my mother. Shee very unwillingly un

    dertooke it, because shee knew itt would bee a surprise

    to them and very unwellcome. But his impertunity

    prevailed, and shee first aquainted my mother with itt

    who was so pasionately offended with the proposall that

    whereas his father might have beene brought to have

    given his consentt (having ever had a good opinion

    of mee & very civill), shee did so exasperate him ag

    ainst it that nothing could sattisfy her, but pre

    sently to putt itt to Mr. H. choice either presenttly

    to marry a rich cittisen's daughter that his father had

    designed for him, or els to leave England. The reason

    I beleeve that made my mother the more incensed

    was, first, that itt was what in the beginning of our aq

    uaintance shee had absolutely discharged my having

    a thought of allowing such an adrese; and though in

    some respect his quality was above mine and therfor

    better then any shee could expect for mee, yett my Lord

    H. fortune was such as had need of a more consid

    erable portion then my mother could give mee, or els

    it must ruine his younger chilldren. And therfore my

    mother would nott consentt to itt, though my Lord H. did

    offer to doe the uttmost his condition would allow him

    if shee would lett mee take my hazard with his son.

    But my mother would nott bee perswaded to itt upon

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    noe consideration, lest any should have though itt

    was began with her allowance; and to take away ye

    suspittion of that, did, I beleeve, make her the more

    violent in opposing itt and the more scavere to mee.

    My sister made choice of Sunday to speake of itt

    first, because shee thought that day might put them

    both in a calmer frame to heare her, and confine

    there passion, since itt would bee the next day before

    they would determine anything. Butt finding both by

    my mother and my Lord H. that they intended

    nothing butt to part us so as never to meett ag

    aine, except itt was as strangers, Mr. H was very

    importunate to have an opertunity to speake with mee

    that night, wch I gave. My sister beeng only with

    mee, wee came downe together to the roome apointed

    to meett with him. I confese I never saw those two

    pasions of love and regrett more truly represented, nor

    could any person exprese greater affection and reso

    lution of constancy, which with many solemne oaths

    hee sealed of never loving or marying any butt

    my selfe. I was not sattisfied with his swearing

    to future performances, since I said both hee & I

    might find itt most convenient to retract, butt

    this I did assure him, as long as hee was constantt

    hee should never find a change in mee, for though

    duty did obliesge mee nott to marry any withoutt

    my mother's consent, yet itt would nott tye mee to

    marry without my owne. My sister att this rises

    and said I did nott thinke you would have ing

    aged mee to bee a wittnese of both your resolutions

    to continue what I expected you would rather have

    laid aside, and therfore I will leave you. Oh, madam

    said hee can you imagine I love att that rate as to

    have itt shaken with any storme? Noe, were I secure

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    your sister would nott suffer in my absence by her

    mother's sevearity, I would nott care what misery I were

    exposed to, butt to thinke I should bee the occation

    of trouble to ye person in the earth that I love most

    is unsuportable and with that hee fell downe in a

    chaire that was behind him, butt as one withoutt all

    sense, wch I must confese did so much move mee yt

    laing aside all former distance I had kept him att,

    I satt downe upon his knee, and laying my head neere his

    I suffred him to kisse mee, wch was a liberty

    I never gave before; nor had nott then had I

    nott seene him so overcome with greefe, wch I in

    deavered to suprese with all ye incouragementt I

    could, butt still presing him to bee obedientt to his

    father, either in goeing abroad or staying att home

    as hee thought most convenient. Noe says hee since

    they will nott allow mee to converse with you, France

    will bee more agreeable to mee then England nor

    will I goethere except I have liberty to come

    here againe & take my leave of you. To that

    I could nott disagree if they thought fitt to allow itt

    and so my sister & I left him, butt shee durst nott

    owne to my mother where shee had beene.

    The next morning early my Lord H went away and

    tooke with him his son & daughter and

    left ˄mee to the seaveritys of my offended mother who

    nothing could pacify. After shee had called for

    mee & said as many bitter things as passion

    could dictate upon such a subject, she discharged

    mee to see him & did solemly vow that if she

    should heare I did see Mr H shee would turne mee

    outt of her doores & never owne mee againe. All I

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    said to that part was that itt should bee against

    my will if ever shee heard of itt. Upon Tuesday my

    Lord H. writt to my mother that hee had determined

    to send his son              to France, and that upon

    Thursday after hee was to begin his journey butt

    all hee desired before hee wentt was to have liberty

    to see mee wch hee thought was a sattisfaction could

    nott bee denyed him and therfore desired my mothers

    consentt to it, wch shee gave upon the condittion

       hat hee should only come in & take his leave

      of mee, butt nott to have any converse butt

      what shee should bee a wittnese of her selfe.

       This would nott attall please Mr H and

       therfore seemed to lay the desire of itt aside.

       In the meane time my chamber & liberty of

       lying alone was taken from mee, and my sisters

    woman was to bee my guardian who watched

    sufficiently so that I had nott ye least opertunity

    either day or night to bee without her. Upon

    Thursday morning early my mother sentt a man

    of my sisters (whose name I must mention with ye

    rest that att that was in the familly, for there was

    Moses Aron & Miriam all att one time in itt &

    none either related or aquainted together till they

    met there) ˄this Moses ˄was sentt to my Lord H with a letter

    to inquire if his son were gone. I must here relate

    a little odd incounter wch agravated my misfortune.

    There came noe returne till night, and, having gott

    liberty to walke in the hall, my mother sentt a child

    of my sisters & bid him walke with mee & keepe

    mee company I had nott beenethere a quarter of an

    hower butt my maid Miriam came to mee & told mee

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    shee was walking att the backe gate & Mr H came

    to her & sentt her to desire mee to come there &

    speake butt two or three words wth him for hee had

    sworne nott to goe away withoutt seeing mee

    nor would hee come in to see my mother for he

    had left London that morning very early & had

    rod up & downe that part of the country only

    till itt was ye gloome of the evening to have the

    more privacy in comming to see mee. I bid her

    goe back & tell him I durst nott see him because

    of my mothers oath & her discharge. While shee

    was presing mee to run to the gate & I was

    neere to take the start, the child cried out

    O my aunt is going wch stoped mee and I

    sent her away to tell ye reason why I could not

    come. I still staid walking in the hall till shee

    returned, wondering shee staid so long. When shee

    came shee was hardly able to speake and with

    great disorder said I beleeve you are ye most

    unfortunate person living, for I thinke Mr H is

    killed. any one that hath ever knowne what

    gratitude was may imagine how these words

    disordered mee, butt impatientt to know how (I was

    resolved to hazard my mother's displeasure rather

    then nott see him), shee told mee that while shee

    was telling him my answeare, there came a fellow

    with a great club behind him & strucke him

    downe dead, & others had seazed upon Mr T

    (who formerly had beene his governer and was

    now intrusted to see him safe on shipboord)

    and his man. The reason of this was from

    what there was too many sad examples of att

    that time, when the devission was betwixt ye King

    and Parliamentt, for to betray a master or a friend

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    was looked upon as doing God good service.

    My brother in law Sr Henry Newton had beene

    long from home in attendance on the King for whose

    service hee had raised a troope of horse upon his

    owne expence & had upon all occations testified his

    loyalty for wch all his estate was sequestred,

    and with much dificulty my sister gott liberty to

    live in her owne house and had the fifth part

    to live upon wch was obtained with impertunity

    There was one of my brothers tenants called Mus

    grove, who was a very great Rogue who farmed

    my brother's land of ye Parliamentt and was imp

    loyed by them as a spye to discover any of the

    Cavaliers that should come within his knowledge

    hee observing 3 gentlemen ˄& a upon good horse scoutt

    ing aboutt all day & keeping atta distance from

    the highway, aprehends itt was my brother who

    had come privately home to see my sister and

    resolves to watch when hee came neere ye house

    and had followed so close as to come behind &

    give Mr H that stroake, thinking itt had beene

    my brother Newton, & seased upon his governer

    and servantt (the post boy beeng left att some

    distance with the horses) In the midst of this dis

    order Moses came there and Miriam having told

    what the occation of itt was, he told Musgrove itt

    was my Lord H son hee had used so upon which

    hee & his complices wenttimediately away and Moses

    and Mr Hs man caried him into an alehouse hard

    by and laid him on a bed, where hee lay some time

    before hee came to himselfe. So hearing all was

    quiett againe & that hee had noe hurt, only ston

    ished with the blow, I wentt into ye roome where I

    had left my mother & sister, wch beeing att a good

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    from the backe gate they had heard nothing

    of the tumult that had beene there. A litle after

    Moses came in and delivered a letter from my Lord

    H                wch after my mother had read shee asked

    what news att London hee answeared the greatest

    hee could tell was that Mr H went away that

    morning early post to Deepe & was going to France

    butt hee could nott learne the reason of itt. My

    mother & sister seemed to wonder att itt. for none

    in the familly except my maid knew any thing

    that had fallen outt, or had any suspition yt

    I was concerned in itt, butt my mother & sister.

    after Moses wentt outt my mother asked mee if

    I was nott ashamed to thinke that itt would bee

    said my L H was forced to send away his

    son to secure him from mee. I said I could nott

    butt regrett what ever had occationed her displeasure

    or his punishmentt, butt I was guilty of noe unhand

    some action to make mee ashamed And therfore what

    ever were my presentt misfortune I was confident to

    evidence before I died that noe child shee had had

    greater love and respect to her, or more obedience.

    to wch shee replied, Itt seemes you have a good opinion

    of your selfe. My mother now beleeving Mr H gone

    I was nott as former nights sentt to my bed and ye

    guard upon mee that was usuall, butt I staid in my

    mothers chamber till shee & my sister (who lay together)

    was abed. In the meane time Mr H had sentt

    for Moses and told him what ever misfortune hee

    might suffer by his stay there, hee was fully deter

    mined nott to goe away without seeing mee and

    desired I would come to the banketting howse in ye

    garden & he would come to ye window & speake to

    mee, wch hee told mee & with all that Mr T (who

    was a very serious good man) did earnestly desire intreat

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    mee to Condescend to his desire to preventt what

    might bee more inconvenient to us both. I sentt him

    word when my mother was abed I would contrive some

    way to sattisfy him, butt nott where hee proposed, be

    cause itt was within the view of my mothers chamber

    window. After I had left my mother & sister in

    there bed, I went alone in the darke through my brothers

    closett to ye chamber where I lay, and as I entred

    the roome I laid my hand upon my eyes and with

    a sad sigh said was ever Creature so unfortunate

    and putt to such a sad dificulty either to make Mr

    H forsworne if hee see mee nott, or if I doe see

    him, my mother will bee forsworne if shee doth nott

    expose mee to the uttmost rigour her anger can

    inventt. In the midst of this dispute with my selfe

    what I should doe: my hand beeng still upon

    my eyes, itt presently came in my mind that if

    I blindfolded my eyes that would secure mee from

    seeing him & so I did not transgrese against

    my mother. And hee might that way sattisfy him

    selfe by speaking with mee. I had as much joy

    in finding outt this meanes to yeeld to him wthoutt

    disquiett to my self, as if itt had beene of more

    considerable consequence. Imediately I sentt Moses

    to tell him upon what condittions I would speake

    with him: first, that hee must allow mee to have

    my eyes covered & that hee should bring Mr T

    with him. and if thus hee were sattisfied I ordered

    him to bring them in the backe way into ye cellar

    where I with Miriam would meett them the other

    way; wch they did. As soone as Mr H saw mee

    hee much impertuned the taking away the covert

    from my eyes wch I nott suffering, hee left disput

    ing that, to imploy the litle time hee had in regret

    ing my nott yielding to his impertunity to marry him

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    before his affection was discovered to his father & my

    mother. For had it beene once past there power to

    undoe, they would [have] beene sooner sattisfied and wee

    might have beene hapy together and nott indured

    this sad separation. I told him I was sory for

    beeing the occation of his discontentt butt I could

    nott repentt the doing my duty what ever ill succese

    itt had, for I ever looked upon marying withoutt

    consentt of parentts as the highest act of ingratitude

    and disobedience that Chilldren could Committ &

    I resolved never to bee guilty of itt. I found his

    greatest trouble was the feare hee had that my

    mother in his absence would force mee to marry

    M L (who was a Gentleman of a good fortune

    who some people thought had a respect for mee)

    To this I gave him as much assurance as I could

    that neither hee nor any other person living should

    lessen his interest till hee gave mee reason for itt

    himselfe. Itt is unnesesary to repeatt the Solemne

    oaths hee made never to love nor marry any other.

    for as I did not aprove of itt then, so I will nott

    now agravate his Crime by mentioning them. Butt

    there was nothing heeleft unsaid that Could exp

    rese a Sinceare virtuous true affection. Mr T (who

    with Moses & Miriam had all this time beene

    so civill to us both as to retire att such a

    distance as nott to heare what we said) came

    and interupted him & desired him to take his

    leave lest longer stay might bee prejudiciall to

    us both all. I called for a bottle of wine and

    giving Mr T thankes for his Civility & care drunk

    to him wishing a good & hapy journey to Mr H So

    taking a farewell of them both I wentt up the

    This was upon Thursday night ye 10th of October 1644

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    time, and nott the worse that hee profesed to have a

    great friendship for my brother Will!

    This gentleman came to see mee sometimes in the

    company of ladys who had beene my mothers neibours in

    St. Martins Lane and sometimes alone. butt when ever

    hee came, his discourse was Serious, handsome, and tending

    to imprese the advantages of piety loyalty & vertue

    and these subjects were so agreeable to my owne in

    clination that I could nott butt give them a good recep

    tion, especially from one that seemed to bee so much

    an owner of them himselfe. After I had beene used

    to freedome of discourse with him, I told him I apr

    oved much of his advise to others, butt I thought his

    owne practise contradicted much of his profession

    for one of his aquaintance had told mee hee had

    nott seene his wife in a twelvemonth and itt was

    imposible in my opinion for a good man to bee an

    ill husband and therefore hee must defend himselfe from

    one before I could beleeve the other of him. Hee said

    itt was nott nesesary to give every˄one that might condemne

    him the reason of his beeng so long from her, yett to sa

    tisfy mee hee would tell mee the truth wch was that hee

    beeng ingaged in the Kings service hee was oblieged

    to bee att London where itt was nott convenient for her

    to bee with him, his stay in any place beeing uncertaine.

    Besides, she lived amongst her friends who though they

    were kind to her yett were nott so to him, for most of

    that country had declared for the Parleament and were

    enemys to all that had, or did, serve the King and

    therfore his wife hee was sure would not condemne him

    for what hee did, by her owne consentt. This seeming

    reasonable, I did insist noe more upon that subject.

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    Att this time hee had frequent letters from the King,

    who imployed him in severall affaires butt that of the

    greatest concerne wch hee was imployed in was to

    contrive the Duke of Yorkes escape outt of St. James

    (where His Highnese and the Duke of Glocester & the

    Princese Elizabeth lived under the care of the Earle

    of Northumberland & his lady). The dificultys of

    itt was representted by Coll. B butt His Majestie still pres

    sed itt & I remember this expresion was in one of the

    letters I beleeve it will bee dificult and if

    hee miscary in the attempt it will bee the greatest

    afliction that can arive to mee butt I looke

    upon James escape as Charless preservation

    and nothing can content mee more therfore bee

    carefull what you doe. This letter amongst

    others hee shewed mee and where the King aprov

    ed of his choice of mee to intrust with itt For to

    gett the Dukes cloaths made ˄& to drese him in his

    disguise. So now all C.B busynese & care was

    how to manage this busynese of so important con

    cerne, wch could not bee performed withoutt severall

    persons concurrence in itt For hee beeng generally

    knowne as one whose being stay att London was in order

    to serve the King few of those who were intrusted

    by the Parliamentt in puplicke concernes durst owne

    convearse or hardly civilitty to him, lest they should

    have beene suspect by there party, wch made itt

    deficult for him to gett accese to ye Duke. butt

    (to bee short) having comunicated ye designe to a gen

    tleman attending His Highnese, who was full of honor

    and fidelity by his meanes hee had private accese to

    the Duke to whom hee presented the Kings letter &

    order to His Highnese for Consenting to act what CB

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    should contrive for his escape wch was so cheerefully inter

    tained and so readily obayed, that beeng once designed

    there was nothing more to doe then to prepare all things

    for the Execution. I had desired him to take a rib

    ban with him & bring mee the bignese of the Dukes

    wast & his lengh to have cloaths made fitt for him.

    In the meanetime C.B was to provide mony for

    all nesesary expence, wch was furnished by an honest

    cittisen. When I gave the measure to my tailor to

    inquire how much mohaire would serve to make

    a petticoate & wastcoate to a young Gentlewoman

    of that bignese & stature hee considered it a long

    time & said hee had made many gownes & suites

    butt hee had never made any to such a person in

    his life. I thought hee was in the right butt his

    meaning was, hee had never seene any women of so

    low a stature have so big a wast. However hee made

    itt as exactly fitt as if hee had taken the measure

    himselfe. It was a mixt mohaire of a light haire

    couler & blacke & ye under petticoate was scarlett.

    All things beeing now ready, upon the 20 of Aprill 1648

    in the evening was the time resolved on for the Dukes

    escape. And in order to that itt was designed for

    a weeke before every night assoone as ye Duke had

    suped, hee and those servants that attended His

    Highnese (till the Earle of Northumberland & the rest

    of the howse had suped) wentt to a play called hide

    and seeke and sometimes hee would hide himselfe

    so well that in halfe an howers time they could

    not find him. His Highnese had so used them to this

    that when he wentt really away they thought hee was

    butt att the usuall sport. A litle before the Duke wentt

    to super that night, hee called for the Gardiner (who

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    who only had a treble key (besides that wch ye Duke

    had) and bid him give him that key till his owne

    was mended wch hee did. And after His Highnese

    had suped, hee imeadiately ˄called to goe to the play & went downe ˄the privy staires

    into the garden & opened the gate that goes into

    the parke, treble locking all the doores behind him.

    And att the garden gate C.B waited for His High

    nese & putting on a cloake & perewig huried him

    away to the parke gate where a coach waited yt

    caried them to the watter side and taking the

    boate that was apointed for that service they rowed

    to the staires next the bridge, where I and Miriam

    waited in a private howse hard by that C.B had

    prepared for dresing His Highnese where all things

    were in a readinese. Butt I had many feares, for CB

    had desired mee, if they came nott there prescisly by

    ten a clocke, to shift for my selfe for then I might

    conclude they were discovered and so my stay there

    could ˄doe noe good, butt prejudice my selfe. Yett this

    did nott make mee leave the howse though ten a clocke

    did strike & hee that was intrusted often wentt to

    the landing place & saw noe boate comming was much

    discouraged & asked mee what I would doe. I told

    him I came there with a resolution to serve His Highs

    and I was fully determined nott to leave that place

    till I was outt of hopes of doing what I came there for

    and would take my hazard. Hee left mee to goe

    againe to ye watter side, and, while I was fortify

    ing my selfe against what might arive to mee

    I heard a great noise of many as I thought comming

    up staires wch I expected to bee soldiers to take mee

    butt itt was a pleasing disapointmentt for ye first

    that came in was the Duke who with much joy I tooke

    in my armes & gave God thankes for his safe arivall.

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    His Highnese called quickely quickely drese mee

    and putting off his cloaths I dresed him in the

    wemens habitt that was prepared, wch fitted His

    Highnese very well & was very pretty in itt. after

    hee had eaten some thing I made ready while I

    was idle, lest His Highnese should bee hungry

    and having sentt for a Woodstreet Cake (wch

    I knew hee loved) to take in the Barge, with as

    much hast as could bee His Highnese wentt crose

    the Bridge to ye staires where the Barge lay

    C.B leading him, and imediately the boatmen

    plied the oare so well that they were soone

    outt of sight having both wind & tide with ym.

    Butt I afterwards heard the wind changed &

    was so contrary that CB told mee hee was ter

    ribly afraid they should have beene blowne backe

    againe. And the Duke said Doe any thing with

    mee rather then lett mee goe backe againe wch

    putt CB to seeke helpe where itt was only to bee

    had & affter hee had most fervently suplicated

    assistance from God presently the wind blew

    faire and they came safely to there intended

    Landing place. Butt I heard there was some defi

    culty before they gott to ye ship att Graves-End

    which had like to have discovered them had nott

    Collonell Washingtons Lady assisted them.

    After the Dukes barge was outt of sight of ye

    Bridge, I and Miriam wentt where I apointed the

    coach to stay for mee & made drive as fast as

    the coachman could to my brothers howse where I staid.

    I met none in the way that gave mee any aprehension

    that the designe was discovered nor was itt noised abr

    oad till the next day. For (as I related before) ye Duke

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    having used to play att hide & seeke & to conceale him

    selfe a long time when they mist him att the same play

    thought hee would have discovered himselfe as formerly

    when they had given over seeking him. butt a much long

    er time beeng past then usually was spentt in thatt

    deverttisementt some began to aprehend that His Highnese

    was gone in earnest past there finding wch made the

    Earle of Northumberland (to whose care hee was commit

    ed) after strict scearch made in the howse of St James

    and all theraboutts to noe purpose) to send and aquaint

    the Speaker of the howse of Commons that the Duke

    was gone butt how or by what meanes hee knew nott

    butt desired that there might bee orders sent to the

    Cinque Ports for stoping all ships going outt till the

    passengers were examined and scearch made in all

    suspected places where His Highnese might bee concealed.

    Though this was gone aboutt with all the vigillancy im

    maginable yett itt pleased God to disapoint them of

    there intention by so infatuating those severall persons

    who were imployed for writting orders, that none of them

    were able to writt one right butt ten or twelve of ym

    were Cast by before one was according to there mind.

    This accountt I had from Mr N who was mace bearer

    to the Speaker att that time and a wittnese of it.

    This disorder of the Clarkes contributed much to the

    Dukes safety for hee was att sea before any of the

    orders came to the Ports and so was free from what

    was designed if they had taken His Highnese.

    Though severalls were suspected for beeng accesory

    to the escape yett they could not charge any with

    itt butt the person who wentt away & hee beeng outt

    of there reach, they tooke noe notice as either to exa

    mine or imprison others.             After C.B had beene so

    Succesfull in Serving the Duke The Prince imployed

    him and commanded him backe againe to London with

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    severall instructions that might have beene serviceable

    to the King had nott God Allmighty thought fitt to blast

    all indeavers that might have conduced to his Matie

    safety.        As soone as CB landed beyond the Tower

    hee writt to desire I would doe him the faver as to come

    to him as beeng the only person who att that time hee could

    trust & when hee should aquaint mee with ye occation

    of his comming, hee doupted nott butt I would forgive him

    for the liberty hee had taken. I knowing hee could come

    upon noe accountt butt in order to serve the King, I ime

    diately sentt for an honest hackney coachman who I knew

    might bee trusted and taking Miriam with mee I wentt

    where hee was. who giving mee a short information of

    what hee was imployed aboutt and how much secrecy

    was to bee used both as to ye Kings interest and his

    owne security it is nott to bee doupted butt I contributed

    what I could to both and taking him backe in the

    coach with mee left him att a private lodging nott

    very farre from my brothers howse, that a servantt

    of his had prepared for him. The earnest desire I had

    to serve the King made mee omitt noe opertunity wherin

    I could bee usefull and the zeale I had for his Matie

    made mee not see what ˄inconveniencys I exposed my selfe to, for my

    intentions beeing just & inocentt made mee nott reflect

    what conclusions might bee made for the private visitts

    which I could nott butt nesesarily make to CB him in order to

    the Kings service. For whatever might relate to itt yt

    came within my knowledge I gave him accountt of

    and hee made such use of itt as might most advance

    his designe. As long as there was any posibility of

    conveying letters secretty to the King hee frequently

    writt & receaved very kind letters from His Matie with

    severall instructions and letters to persons of honour and

    loyalty butt when all access was debarred by the strict guard

    placed aboutt the King all hee could then doe was to keepe

    warme those affections in such as hee had influence in till

    a seasonable opertunity to evidence there love and duty

    to His Matie. Though CB discovered himselfe to none butt

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    such as were of knowne integrity yett many comming to

    that place where hee lay made him thinke itt convenient

    for his owne safety to goe sometime into the country &

    att his returne to bee more private. One evening when I

    wentt to see him I found him lying upon his bed and

    asking if hee were nott well hee told mee hee was well

    enough butt had receaved a visitt in the morning from

    a person that hee wondred much how hee found him

    outt. hee was a Solicittor that was imployed by all the

    gentlemen in the County where hee lived wch was hard

    by where his wife dwelt and hee had brought him word

    shee was dead & named the day & place where shee

    was buried. I confese I saw him nott in much greefe &

    therfore I used nott many words of consolation but left

    him after I had given him accountt of the busynese I wentt

    for. I neither made my visitts lese nor more ˄to him for this news

    for loyalty beeng the principle that first led mee to a

    freedome of converse with him, so still I continued itt as

    often as there was occation to serve that interest. Hee

    putt on Mourning and told the reason of itt to such as hee

    conversed with, butt had desired the Gentleman who had

    first aquainted him with itt nott to make itt puplicke

    lest the fortune hee had by his wife & shee injoyed while

    shee lived should bee sequestred.        To bee short after a

    litle time hee, on a day when I was alone with him

    began to tell mee that now hee was a free man hee

    would say that to mee wch I should have never knowne

    while heelived if itt had beene otherways which was

    that hee had had a great respect & honour for mee

    since the first time hee knew mee butt had resolved

    itt should die with him if hee had nott beene in a

    condittion to declare itt withoutt doing mee prejudice.

    For hee hoped if hee could gaine an interest in my

    affection itt would nott apeare so unreasonable to marry

    him as others might representtitt, for if it pleased God

    to restore the King of wch hee was nott yett outt of hopes

    hee had a promise of beeng one of his Matie bedchamber

    and though that should faile yett what hee & I had toge

    ther would bee aboutt eight hundred pound ˄sterling a yeare wch with